Depression gets skin deep but im praying for god to help me get thru this time

Depression is slowly getting the best of me but im looking as god will give me the strength to get thru this i know if i dont have anybody in the world atleast i have god. Atleast i know he is there

so i look at things diffrent then everybody else the world to me is a joke not like how it used to be mostly full of people who act like they have a image are ashamed to ask for help . getting so much attention that they have left god behind backslidding christians .
why is that huh ?

I believe my life will be happy again and i will smile again and not have to worry or have a care in the world for the folks who dont have a care for me .

to know and understand how i feel is like getting up realizing you are a ghost as if you are dead to the world . as if the world has said F#ck you and kept going people hearts have only turn to material things timberlands jordans black labels what happen when a new fashion comes out ? you leave the old fashion in the dust have to have this image to show the next stranger im all that and im doing this when really all they doing is false advertising . the reason so many good people are by past is because men and women are so quick to find a look alike of a celebrity .
celebrity bleed they go thru sorrow and at the end of there career they either in jail or they die .

they just have a legacy that will die with the generations that knew of em .

i havent touched a ciggarette in monthes crazy huh i used to use a ciggarette to hide the pain and really it didint hide anything .it just revealed that i was trying to hide something .

waking up with no son to hold in my arms and it seems like nobody feels the saddness of being away from your child. and pretending like everything is alright it isnt alright this is not earth this hell you cant even go down the street wondering will that be your last day on earth . this is nuts huh crazy tears fall on my pillow for a better life a better family that will understand that depression isnt a thought its a sickness also . i have been depressed for years sometimes it turns off like a light switch but then there are times that it turn back off .

Crazy thoughts

its like your life flash in front of your eyes and its like the world could possibly care bout you . and some family could possibly care if you exist until you dont exist nomore . thats when they miss you or recognize what you did or sorry for this and that. maybe that will be the day my real family treat me like family instead of a outsider instead you try to replace the family with people thats not blood thinking that your friends will be there but at the end they treat you like how your family treated you pretend you dont exist wish they never met you or some cases just wish you play a magic trick and dissappear .

when will anybody appreciate me or will i be appreciated when im dead and gone
seems like all i have i done on this earth is suffered and feeling unloved i just know something is missing .

wow 5linx my beginning experience

so i started going to this presentation and made my mind up some monthes later that i was gonna join five linx this picture is the actual 5linx pbr that i went to that introduce me to the opp you cant see me because im like sitting in the corner thank goodness to that but it was a great experience i got to touch and see first hand the video phone even got to see the product in action it was neat what could i say
now i will be recieving my second product from 5linx becaue i already have my digital telephone adapter (DTA ) so now im gonna get my video phone and i already recieve my commisson so i will have to say this website is ledgit no scam you put in effort you will get it lol anyway visit my site today
i even recieved my blackberry free from using 5linx

its friday what a crazy week

so lets say this week has been crazy i got laid off from my job due to lack of work which i think is a lie . basically my job is just cowards thats what that is and another thing i hope they dont call me back because i wont come back any place that treat there employees like that is not a good place at all .

my son is coming home for the weekend and im so excited he makes me so happy when the world or when people dont in general it so cool being a mommy it some tough times and really tough times but it worth it . im pretty sure he has alot to tell me about something . i will have to go grocery shopping today and i want to reward myself for putting up with that stupid job because it do truley sucks i cant tell you what job due to me signing some forms but i will say its best that its left unsaid because they treat there employees bad and they suck so i will be getting me a ipod classic 160 gb so im trying to figure whats gonna happen today each day a surprise good or bad im gonna be ready ya hear me ready lol

Besides my vent blog the brighter side of things

oh man i had such a somewhat great day i received my Motorola clutch it so cool the text kinda will take some time to get used too ....
i thought of my bookie while looking at it the color the available everything ....
sometimes i wonder tho is somebody heart true that they don't reply back when i say i love you maybe cause they don't feel it and maybe i should leave it alone the thought instead of worrying if the person hate me or something ........

Ive been looking at my Betta fish (midnight iris ) and (jade) they seem alot happy in there nice clean bowls i put a live plant in there so they can feel better it seem to cheer them up and put some brine shrimp in there they really liked it maybe i will do a YouTube video .......
i started thinking of all the wonderful questions in the world and what could be the answer i gave a beautiful answer to a question asked today maybe the question will be asked again who knows ......

when i love i love hard each day i love even harder so maybe i should stop before i scare a love away that usually what happens anyway ... who knows what the future will hold but sometimes i feel like I'm gonna be brokenhearted at the end of my rope ....i pray to god that each turns out better because each day i feel no hope at times i eat once a day like today wishing i had a meal and a family to share that with but all i have is nothing but loneliness and tears its like at some point my body adapts that i only eat once or twice a day praying to god wondering where my next meal or if unemployment gonna grant me a extension because I'm gonna need it this i feel is the roughest I've been smiling on the outside and crying on the inside with only cigarettes to comfort me at night which isn't good sometimes i go without those even though i have it people claim they don't have much but look at my situation and they should be glad they go to bed with a full belly ......i know the lord will make away times will get better i guess i have to keep the faith even though it feel like i have nothing left anyway bout to get teary eyed think i need a ciggy goodnight folks love peaches

people dont care so why should i (march vent blog)

im so angry right now what im really feeling i would right in my journal but it seems my feelings dont matter or the word i love you dont have no meaning as to me feeling like i do ....

so damn angry with myself tired of trying to figure if love is real or not or am i being played with emotionally because the departing will depart ......



no room for me anymore and i cant help to cry with built up frustration and anger that i will keep to myself i hate this and i hate feeling this way but nobody ever thinks about how serious i am when i say i love you maybe im venting or maybe in a away im hurting and nobody care to notice nada aka nothing besides what going on with them ... how im always there to be a friend to listen but nobody want to listen to me ......oooh im not gonna say it just gonna shut up ........just going to shut up hopefully i will feel better tomorrow

The End

The more i can say each day something get its on my nerves where people feel like i got to answer to them .
I dont answer to nobody .

people think they have the reason to ask me questions and im like im not 2 years old if something was going on then i would fess up but nothing is going on but me trying to have some peace and safety in my life .

The damage has been done and im sick of the drama and the pain people
trying to find anything to argue with me about or to start something .
when its really there problem not mines
they the one who have the damn issues not mines .

Because people are a certain way dosnt mean i got to be
my parents can hate a certain person not i .


god is the only one who controls me
he knows what i do everyday so i have no reason to feel guilty about anything
because im not doing nothing wrong to anybody .

Trying to live if anything instead of all these crazy azz insecure people putting stress on me because they want to have a temper tantrum . contributing to my damn death if anything .

wanting me to damn die but i wont give them the damn satisfaction of doing so

dracula

i kinda relate to the book beside the blood of course
it seem that he had a strong mind connection to mina
he was in her thoughts he read her mind .
like his love was stronger to survive death and conqour it and accept it .
have you ever been in love like that .....

that days go by or hours go by and you seem to feel your love calling you
or there smell still lingers in the air as of there favorite cologne


or there voice tends to echo in your head
or maybe they meet you in your dreams make the dreams become so fine
i'm hoping that i dont sound crazy how i love him so that i carry my love for him in my heart and he whereever i go just like i carry the love of my son everywhere i go

and it tends to comfort me when i am alone or i hold my teddy bear tight and dream a dream that makes me not want to wake up am i making sense i think or do i think not

Romeo Romeo where thou art is Romeo ?(poem)

I so love your smile your touch the smell of your cologne
the way your eyes look into mines
the way your heart look out for other's
the way you can bounce back from any situation
the way you make me feel inside as well as out .......

so its like when im not with you i have to say
romeo ..... romeo where thou art is romeo ?
is he near
are you near my love cause i can feel your presence when you not here .....
will you be here
will you be here soon

will you ?

Feeling Great

I'm having a great day i plan on calling my son seeing how he doing
because i miss him alot and thinking about my love ......
and praying that the lord bless me with a job because i really want to work
listening to my 16 gb zune player im like this is pretty cool i love it music is my therapy .........
whats crazy being in love overcomes all the sadness i have because the world is so damn hard to find a job .
sometimes i wish i can change my past but all i can do is move forward and pray that the lord let me make it thru these tough times not knowing when my next dollar will be but praying i will overcome this and be blessed ........
anyway to my special someone i love you so much and i hope you know this when you go out in the world dealing with everyday trials and even though things isnt what they are suppose to be just trust and believe god will pull through he always do .....

rightnow im listening to my favorite song Foreigner ( i want to know what love is )
classic (looks like love has finally found me ) love that song that is a classic for all the people who dont know what that song is about

craving seafood

i love to try all types of foods sushi and oysters seem to be my now favorite to eat and i cant wait to go to another buffet to eat somemore sushi and oysters i do have a question tho why when your in those kind of places the people seem to bother you to much and over crow you alot . and seem like they just hoovering over you all the time are they trying to rush you out of there are they trying to make sure you dont eat up all the food . and do they have a restriction on how many plates you can get
hmmmmmmm questions and more questions .


i might go to kobe and go to the sushi bar you know that will probably be my favorite place actually from now on i think my besties have created a sushi eating monster lol

Left out (the february vent blog just one each month)

so basically winter a romantic season for love birds and a depression for me really hate this type of season it gets on my nerves i have to find ways to keep my life exciting for i am not spoiled things are not giving to me .....most of the time i have to make my self happy cause i cant depend on anybody else to do so .....
sometimes i cry at night wishing i had a diffrent life bit do anybody knows how it is to be me of course not they only think about thereselves .


only want want want want want maybe chanelle tired of being left out from not being spoiled maybe chanelle tired of being alone all the time just maybe people wouldnt make it seem like there life is so much better than mines ....or boast about what they have because basically i dont feel like hearing the shit ....and if people dont feel like reading this go somewhere else because ive been balling this up inside and it has to come out or might be some destruction which wouldnt be good ..

they said good comes to those who wait im like thats great but when is stuff good gonna come when im dead and gone ...... maybe i just should keep silent for the next couple of days im to angered to do anything but wonder why me ....and i can feel that im gonnna snap on somebody soon

betty boop pajama's with a thought in my head laying in my bed typing instead

i wish i had someone to hold me right now instead of having the cold air hug me .. i wish i can feel a kiss instead the water kiss my lips ..... maybe i should cut my phone off all together nobody calls me anyway .......feel like my temeperature has went up like crazy probably why i feel so sick . have a tough decision to make sooner than later and i wonder will i pull through or let it fall thru my hands again ......man these pajama's are comfy . all my friends that i thought were turnt out not ......i will be soon deleting all the phony's off my facebook wont even get a call or a facebook note so im like i will save yall the trouble and do what you wont do and that is wasting both our time still wondering about valentines day i have treated like a non important holiday maybe in some cases it is.... people rush out to get candy and treat the person they love extra special when they should be like that all along why wait on the holidays and then people get childish when they dont get there way ........ i really dont care if people dont love me i love myself and that all that matters anyway too tired to type right now

Pretty Cool Flip Ultra

This is a pretty cool camera this is actually the color that mines is here the facts about the flip Display: 1.5 inch TFT Memory: 2GB built-in memory holds up to 60 minutes of recorded video Screen size: 1.5" Weight: 97g (without battery) Image Sensor: 1/4" VGA CMOS sensor. Large (5.6 m) pixels for maximum light sensitivity Video Resolution: QVGA 640x480 pixels Video frame rate: 30 frames per second File format: Advanced Profile MPEG4 AVI Video Bitrate: 4.5Mbps (average - auto adaptive algorithm) Aperture: f/2.4 (fast lens for great results in low-light environments) Low Light Sensitivity: Very high sensitivity (>2.0V/lux-sec) Power Source: 2 × AA batteries (included) Battery life: Up to 2.5 hours (Battery life may vary between batteries and use pattern) Interface: USB arm to connect directly to computer OSD Language: English Power Control: Auto Power Off, Manual Off Exposure: Auto White Balance: Auto-adaptive white/black balance and exposure. Improved colour fidelity, exposure control and dynamic range Zoom: Smooth multi-step 2x digital Warranty: 2 years manufactures warranty Microphone: Effective within 12 feet indoors Operating System Requirements: PC - Pentium 4 2.0GHz or faster, with at least 512 MB of RAM, Windows XP SP2 or Vista, and USB Port. Macintosh: PowerPC G4 1.0 GHz, Intel Core or faster, with at least 512MB of RAM, OS X 10.3.9 or later, and USB Port within seconds i was recording my two Betta fish acting weird and chasing each other and what notanyway its clear its compact has a cute color what more can you ask for folks i give it a four out of five because it doesn't have a added memory feature but other than that its great

oh no valentines day lol

i'm sorry to say valentines day i like but i kinda despise the holiday i usually spend the day alone or if i was working , working acourse this year i bout myself my presents knowing i might be alone ......again on that day i bought me a eyore and nice ring set and sciphone A.K.A iphone clone and a kimora lee simmons barbie and a flip i know thats alot but a female need to cheer herself up . as though something telling me something that some people love isnt true so when all fails you have to love yourself , even if i sit at home and cry with a bottle of applecider because i might be alone who knows ... maybe i can read me a book i love romance novels especially by zane she is the best anyway im so out of here ttyl sorry about the short note but i am somewhat tired had a crazy day

grandma always said try something new

i know my grandma henson always made me try something new when it came to food so one of my besties introduced me to sushi and i will have to say not bad .
not bad at all .

now there is one sushi i cant stand this one that has the fish on top of the rice

oh man if that wasnt nasty maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan thats was just yuck i shouldnt have tried that i know that for sure .......

other than that i had a great time i had a peach margarita a little to strong but it was okay caught up with my azz like a couple of minutes ago tho ..... but i was cool once i sat down for a few minutes you know ..

cant wait to go back and try all the new foods lol what a crazy day yesterday was

Dont let nobody say diffrent about you ... your'e fabulous

some people purpose in there life is to make others feel like nothing or hurt others

i know alot of people used to say i was slow or mentally challenge im like yeah it take one to know one .
when others want to speak ill about me i sleep at night why im running in there thoughts haha messed up your day they would probably think and im like nah i feel good becaus if you got to stoop that low and act like a child be my guest but i wont give you the satisfaction of making me mad .


Today i ate a nice healthy lunch i arched my own eyebrows and i feel fabulous couldnt feel better even though im still looking for a job i know the lord will bless me when i keep on trying and trying and trying and i think to myself god has something better in store for me thats why i couldnt do this and i couldnt do that lol ..... i dont wish to hear others complain about what they want and throw a tantrum make it happen or shut up about it . sorry if that sounded me but sometimes people need a tough love whipping ..... think about your situation if you didnt have all you have now and be thankful .........dont press the issue off of material items because when we leave this earth we wont be able to take anything with us but yet leave all behind

you dont have to see god to know he is there

some people have lost hope and dont believe it instead they ignore god and worship material items like cars and iphones and other devices god has the power to take all away from person even there own life so you should praise the lord regardless if you go to church or dont go to church .
Money is the seed to the devil power because people do the craziest things for that cash that has the dead presidents on it .

you cant bribe god you cant impress god with your fashion or style he gave you that knowledge to come up with your fashion style to breath to not breath to read and not to read to make to not make.. knowledge is key when others dont believe and fight with there lost souls at god children , god children attacks back with the word .

ask the lord and it shall be given to you i dont give up hope about a job. in my room in my house in my bed i praise the lord and ask him to bless me to help me gain the strength to over come the challenges that the world brings upon me .

and what did he do today he bless me with a new futon people deserve a good night rest one of my besties knew i needed a bed because i always talk about how jacked up my bed is and i got blessed wit a nice bed so thank you lord for that now praying and trying for a job

its okay to stumble when trying the lord is there to catch you remember that

youtube here i come

hey wassup people kinda excited about my flip that will be shipped on tuesday the 26th and me making my vedio's and sharing them and making my own youtube channel so be prepared i can be funny serious and god fearing and very truthful about what i talk about from products review and somemore stuff.And most importantly i can talk about my products from my website passionatediva.net ...rite now im gonna snuggle up to my teddybears and stuff

going out to eat with the besties

man i had a wonderful time going out to eat with the besties even though the resturant needed some serious improvement im not gonna mention this place either all i can say it was in va man ........va

sometimes when the world seem a little stressful your friends can cheer you up and me i love to laugh and make other laugh i will be coming out with a youtube vedio blog talking about random things that goes on in the mind of me ....nelle
and acourse everyday funny events an business etc and some product reviews trying to step out of that shy shell because life is all about taking chances getting messy making mistakes you know.

each of my friends can sometimes make me mad and im pretty sure i can make them mad to in return but they always there to be like its okay if i was hurt wheather it was physical or emotional or whatever the case .


wonder what im gonna do today probably read a book and hope that my father dont get on my nerves when he get home he has such a evil streak everyday that i stay stress from all his nagging anyway ttyl fans im out

Sometimes a womans kind heart or mind isnt rewarded

a woman is never recognize sometimes for her efforts in a relationship
a man dont have the same emotions of a woman .

sometimes a selfish person can make a person feel low next to nothing and unappreciated but all things dont come with a reward .

life isnt about sex its the person inside.
but two many people want what they want they dont appreciate nothing .


sometimes life can make people give up hope pack up and leave without the nerve to listen to there heart there mind or even god.

sometimes people are scared of change .

not recognizing when people are trying to show appreciation but at the same time there rewards is nothing but constant demands and more demands that make people think of there future and will they be happy in there future

It's friday enjoy yourself

the last couple of days have been a serious test i would like a drink but i will not drink a person shouldnt always depend on a drink all the time .
times a little rough right now and i pray to the lord nightly that it gets better
job's seem to be so hard to come by when you have more qualified canidates that apply too .
so you are in a competition with many others to get that number one spot
hopefully my hard work will pay off someday because the lord knows how hard i'm trying to make it .

i just keep a positive tude believing that i will make it that one day i can sit back and laugh at what was so hard to come by has been achieved .

i grew up with no golden spoon in my mouth but the harsh realities when you dont have a absent father in the home a single mother that tries i guess .

many of my fam stay close help each other and sometimes help there children
everything that i have recieved in my life has been achieved by your truly .
And only your's truly .......


I'm planning to build a big empire and pay it back someday because i am not selfish with money .when i find a goood paying income job i am planning to invest some money in some orgnizations or maybe some children i love kids they are so innocent .
at times they are full of life and promise with no care in the world .

well its four something in the morning and i can barely keep my eyes open so much love Passionate Diva

I am the light when others seek darkness

its funny when people try to turn there life into positive here comes the negative well you know something always happen or supposly you did this or that when all you did was mind your business and bothered noone .

i say the devil has a hold of alot of souls but he dont have mine's and he wont have mines either because i am god child and will not allow anybody negativity to be transfered over here .

the devils victory is to cause these thought to all of a sudden form and for people to respond to it .
its his life source to dish out evil with out that evil his kingdom cannot survive .

his kindom isnt like gods for god is the almighty i turned my life around trying to keep it in the positive i was so tired of friends not trying to be around because i was always showing sadness or i seem to complain or whatever the case .

so now im staying positve and what is the devil doing trying to figure away to gain control to make my life miserable . i wont give him the satisfaction .
i wont give anybody the satisfaction nolonger to make me unhappy make me sad its all in the mind . you have the control of you nobody else do so what do that mean? ......
you have the power to make change
to make your life work for the better because tomorrow isnt promised and i do not want to spend my last day on earth whenever that be thinking negative of another
i want to live everyday like its my last

just like al pacino said in carlito's but im gonna change it abit so hold on ....

when my time comes and i know its coming im gonna welcome it


sorry girls
going on a trip
last round for drinks
bar's closing
cant come with me on this trip
but eventually you will when your train tickit is purchased

but as martin lawrence say it

ride it till the wheels fall off

never feeling something makes me wonder

never feeling death makes me wonder how is it like what do your body go thru do you feel pain .
death is a sneaky bastard that sneaks up on you any time any moment
you never know when your number will be called .
that long line of waiting ends up getting shorter and shorter .

kind of makes fear death a little because it has stolen so many lives how do you know if you are not next?

all the material in this world cant be brought with you when its your time
just your love in your heart .

OH NO its snows again lol

I cant stand winter i am so ready for the spring bring on the spring all this coldness here i cant take it lol .then i have to travel in this junk on friday lets hope its not bad and it ends soon .
cant stand this snow yuck . im sorry im not the grinch but i hate snow .
Hope it be good for the rest of the week .

Being under the covers with a nice book is what im gonna do because this is some bull lol . im gonna fix me a hot drink and read my latest zane book Another Time Another Place , so far this is a great book .


I'm a big fan of zane and miasha because they are the best writers sorta like a inspiration you know . well im gonna pray this snow dont mess up my travel plans going to va this weekend lol

what has gotten me in a great mood this morn

sometimes i wonder why i continue on a daily basis to smile to stay in a positive mood, i have gods love that keeps my going the love of my true friends who always there to listen

the love of my besties that can sometimes make me frustrated with them but at all we have a bond that cannot be broken .

some people say im lucky that my son dont live with me i guess i suppose to enjoy the nature of parent hood part time . but it has sadden me but at the same time im glad my son goes to school is being independent of himself and have a mind of his own how many parents allow there kids to do that .

my life wasnt planned out this is what god has given to me , and i only wonder what other paths i will lead in my dedication and hard work to be a positive role model .
some people might disagree but i say it start all in the mind, before in the body dont quickly judged if you dont want to be judged in return because what you do to other 's will surely come back to you its that good karma law lol .


and i respect the karma law so much that its my nickname that i call myself because i believe it .

god's love is a unconditional love the greatest love of all the kind that a parent has for there child . for he is our father

my question why do people love wh do people love what is the reason why people love another is it money ,sex ,or the feeling that living without them makes you hurt inside have yall really experienced true love its like a dream .

thats why today i wake up with a smile and not a frown because somewhere out there in this wicked world there is somebody that loves me .and that can make anyday or make you believe in that word hope . god is love , much love passionatediva

This cold weather yuck

alot of people would say winter is good for couples but i will say winter isn't good for me its so cold in here in my room .....I'm under like three blankets trying to stay warm .

thinking of some new titles and new poems for my book before i end up publishing it all my poems besides a slight few will be fresh .And i cant wait for the world to read my works .

sometimes i wonder if you never made certain choices would your life turned out the same or would it be different who knows .

i say everybody deserves a nice relax vacation away from home it will make you feel better .
me i plan taking a two -day vacation just a day or two that's all i need to relax and enjoy peace and quiet .

i miss my son i will say parenthood isn't easy but it do has its rewards it feels great to be called mom sometimes it don't feel great having others rewarded for your pain and nine month's of bringing your child here .

so glad when winter will end but have no idea what i will do on valentines day i wonder

Nice to know you are loved

if you ever been in love you know it makes your days go smoothly makes a shitty day seems like heaven . and it dosnt matter if you are single or in a relationship love can battle anything because with gods love makes you think that wasting your days being easily angered is ridiculous .
I'm kinda glad that my some of my friends that have been searching for love have found it sometimes it takes a while just like that perfect drink that could be your favorite or that favorite meal .
And for all that are searching all good things comes to those that wait . sometimes in life you pick a few bad apples maybe some that havent even fully developed yet but keep trying it will come to you love much love passionate diva

Pleasure vs Pain

what makes a person overlook another person flaws and marriage its love.
if you willing to work with them until they get better improved . then do so if they are a good man or female to deal with but if they are not gonna change . And they cause you to much pain maybe its time to let them go no point in you having a broken heart . Even if it means you have to be single there nothing wrong with people being single and being happily single .

Enjoy your life and dont let nothing or noone bring you down because you never know when your last day on earth might be and only god knows that but why live in emotional pain let it go and let god .

If you have found that love then romance is very important in a relationship even if you stay in the same house give your woman flowers maybe a massage every now and then tell your love one you love them as many times as you can

cinderella three

This my favorite disney sorta like a romantic disney story i love romantic movies .
cinderella fairy godmother loses her wand and the stepmother gets ahold of it .
And makes the prince forget he danced with cinderella its a really cool movie .

Anybody ever notice that all the fathers in disney movies are always short fat with white hair or just about the same color with white hair hilarious

New Attitude old negative out the window

I figure the best way to love my life is to appreciate it more .
And make the most of it . Stop pretending to be happy and be happy .Be thankful for all the family that i do love , that loves me back.
I look up to my older cousin vanisha cause she always stay positive no matter what so if she can do it right ? Right i have this feeling that this year will be a spectacular one that i will make my brother and my grandmothers proud . Because im gonna do what i need to do in my life with god's help acourse to make me happy and my son happy .

Today was a okay day tomorrow will be better i sat here working on my site and my book .
The Truth Behind These Eyes a poetry book that ive had put on a shelf and didnt even think about touching but you know what its time to let the world know of my talents .So with this being a new year why not this year tomorrow isnt promise and next year isnt promised .

My goals is to do better in my schoolwork and acourse acheive my goals of finishing up this book working on my next book Letter's To God and acourse having my website as a success .

And acourse knocking all the negative people out my life . And spending more time with my siblings i only saw my brother damian one time last year and that was the last time so dont take your love ones for granted thinking they will always be here causee they might not .
I know he will watch his big sister do some things this year he is now my angel .