Feeling Great

I'm having a great day i plan on calling my son seeing how he doing
because i miss him alot and thinking about my love ......
and praying that the lord bless me with a job because i really want to work
listening to my 16 gb zune player im like this is pretty cool i love it music is my therapy .........
whats crazy being in love overcomes all the sadness i have because the world is so damn hard to find a job .
sometimes i wish i can change my past but all i can do is move forward and pray that the lord let me make it thru these tough times not knowing when my next dollar will be but praying i will overcome this and be blessed ........
anyway to my special someone i love you so much and i hope you know this when you go out in the world dealing with everyday trials and even though things isnt what they are suppose to be just trust and believe god will pull through he always do .....

rightnow im listening to my favorite song Foreigner ( i want to know what love is )
classic (looks like love has finally found me ) love that song that is a classic for all the people who dont know what that song is about

craving seafood

i love to try all types of foods sushi and oysters seem to be my now favorite to eat and i cant wait to go to another buffet to eat somemore sushi and oysters i do have a question tho why when your in those kind of places the people seem to bother you to much and over crow you alot . and seem like they just hoovering over you all the time are they trying to rush you out of there are they trying to make sure you dont eat up all the food . and do they have a restriction on how many plates you can get
hmmmmmmm questions and more questions .


i might go to kobe and go to the sushi bar you know that will probably be my favorite place actually from now on i think my besties have created a sushi eating monster lol

Left out (the february vent blog just one each month)

so basically winter a romantic season for love birds and a depression for me really hate this type of season it gets on my nerves i have to find ways to keep my life exciting for i am not spoiled things are not giving to me .....most of the time i have to make my self happy cause i cant depend on anybody else to do so .....
sometimes i cry at night wishing i had a diffrent life bit do anybody knows how it is to be me of course not they only think about thereselves .


only want want want want want maybe chanelle tired of being left out from not being spoiled maybe chanelle tired of being alone all the time just maybe people wouldnt make it seem like there life is so much better than mines ....or boast about what they have because basically i dont feel like hearing the shit ....and if people dont feel like reading this go somewhere else because ive been balling this up inside and it has to come out or might be some destruction which wouldnt be good ..

they said good comes to those who wait im like thats great but when is stuff good gonna come when im dead and gone ...... maybe i just should keep silent for the next couple of days im to angered to do anything but wonder why me ....and i can feel that im gonnna snap on somebody soon

betty boop pajama's with a thought in my head laying in my bed typing instead

i wish i had someone to hold me right now instead of having the cold air hug me .. i wish i can feel a kiss instead the water kiss my lips ..... maybe i should cut my phone off all together nobody calls me anyway .......feel like my temeperature has went up like crazy probably why i feel so sick . have a tough decision to make sooner than later and i wonder will i pull through or let it fall thru my hands again ......man these pajama's are comfy . all my friends that i thought were turnt out not ......i will be soon deleting all the phony's off my facebook wont even get a call or a facebook note so im like i will save yall the trouble and do what you wont do and that is wasting both our time still wondering about valentines day i have treated like a non important holiday maybe in some cases it is.... people rush out to get candy and treat the person they love extra special when they should be like that all along why wait on the holidays and then people get childish when they dont get there way ........ i really dont care if people dont love me i love myself and that all that matters anyway too tired to type right now