Left out (the february vent blog just one each month)

so basically winter a romantic season for love birds and a depression for me really hate this type of season it gets on my nerves i have to find ways to keep my life exciting for i am not spoiled things are not giving to me .....most of the time i have to make my self happy cause i cant depend on anybody else to do so .....
sometimes i cry at night wishing i had a diffrent life bit do anybody knows how it is to be me of course not they only think about thereselves .


only want want want want want maybe chanelle tired of being left out from not being spoiled maybe chanelle tired of being alone all the time just maybe people wouldnt make it seem like there life is so much better than mines ....or boast about what they have because basically i dont feel like hearing the shit ....and if people dont feel like reading this go somewhere else because ive been balling this up inside and it has to come out or might be some destruction which wouldnt be good ..

they said good comes to those who wait im like thats great but when is stuff good gonna come when im dead and gone ...... maybe i just should keep silent for the next couple of days im to angered to do anything but wonder why me ....and i can feel that im gonnna snap on somebody soon